You may not know it but you were born in crossfire of many wars.
Some physical, some philosophical, some religious and some political.
But there are basically two types: ancient and modern.

To fight the ancient wars there are those that will seek to recruit you especially during youth or periods of unhappiness.

They will try to convince you that the unknown is their certain secret knowledge and that secret must be preserved with your own blood and your own money, and the blood of your children.

To fight the modern wars there are those that will seek to educate you, and train your mind for independence. They will teach you the interconnectedness of all things, and the struggle for a prosperous survival.

If you choose not to fight you will be enlisted anyway in the wars between self indulgence and duty
or youth and old age. There are many, many wars.

So, you have no choice. You will fight.

It's your life.
And all we can know for sure is that it will one day end.

So to make peace with yourself, choose your battles carefully.
Or they will be chosen for you.